Boss! I can't see! No; nuth'n wrong with my eyes! I just can't see mySelf coming to work today! (Problem Child) Today is September 1st as I write this blog.
Yesterday - Friday August 30th - was a powerful day for me. Yet truth be told, July 30th was probably even more powerful and *significantly* more important than yesterday. Why? Because after careful thought, internal work and prayers for clarity, on July 30th I politely penned and turned in my resignation from my 9-to-5 "Government Job" and gave the perfunctory 30- day notice that August 30th would be my last day on the job. Can I tell you the peace that came over me once I made that decision to walk away from a nursing career that defined my very existence for over 40 years! Ever heard the term “The peace that passeth all understanding”? For context, Philippians 4:6-7 reads: “Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and petition and with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God which surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus”. Let me pause for a moment just to read that again and let it sink in. I invite you to do the same…..
And so here we are, Sunday September 1st. Trust and believe when I tell you that I slept REAL good last night, and I woke up feeling beautiful and light and happy, the 1st time in over a year. But wait; how is it September already? More importantly, how is it September 1st and I don’t have to go to work tomorrow, Monday? If you could only see me smiling right now as I pose this question; If you could aura-scan my Energy field and see how light and vibrant and alive I feel right now!!! Stark contrast to the miserable Corporate Zombie I had become, working in a cesspool of toxicity this final year and the weeks leading up to my decision to leave. Yes, I said it and I have no regrets saying it. Many of the people I worked with on a day-to-day basis would probably tell you they saw the changes coming.
For a long while I had resigned myself to fulfilling my civic duties and showed up every day, worked harder than I should have to do my job, meet their needs, keep the peace and make people happy. The expense I paid was it made me physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually ill. I caught COVID 3.5 times (I say 3.5 because the one time the test was negative but I had all the symptoms and I was penalized for calling out sick - AS DIRECTED!!!!). Yes, you read that right! And I would love for anyone from that Past to challenge me on this or say diddly-squat to me about me publicizing my truth. This happens every day. In the hospital setting, we are the front line workers who are exposed to all kinds of viruses and communicable diseases, and even though we have time allotted for Sick Days, we get written up and counseled for calling out sick. Make it make sense!
It wasn’t hard to make that decision when I finally did it. It was simple: stay and wither away into bitterness, or walk away from the fuckeries & bullshit, and reclaim my life, my health and my sanity. These were far more important to me at this point than any work loyalties or paycheck. So you the Reader - especially those of you who do not know me, or know of me from the periphery of my work, you are probably shocked to see this side of me? I make no apologies for my words. Unless you walked in my shoes and experienced all the things I experienced, you will never know and will never understand. I pray that you don’t.
Sometimes we get so caught up in our job, our role, our title. Our Ego falls prey to those narratives that dictate whether or not you identify yourself as a success or a failure. The majority of us are not lazy or ambitionless; The majority of us truly want to be productive members of society, and to use our gifts to make a difference in our community or the world at large. Some of us go in for altruistic reasons; Some for survival; Some for the potentiality of who we can become. Some of us unfortunately need - or get hit with - reminders of who ‘They’ think we are. But, I ask you: Who are you not?
Sometimes when you lose someone or something that you identified with, it causes a ‘suffering’ of sorts. Eckhart Tolle eloquently wrote (summarized): “You are not your role. You are not your status. You are not your possessions. You are not your religion. To know yourself is to be rooted in your Being, not lost in your mind…. Now you have to ask yourself: “Who am I without ‘It’ that was always such a presence in my life (good or bad).” This gives pause for reflection on your personal journey, your dreams, your goals, what you’re willing to sacrifice, how hard you will work, what will you settle for, to what degree will you compromise, what is your definition of success, and what will become your breaking (ending) point.
Well the other piece to this puzzle and to explain the timeliness of my decision we can look to the Stars. Astrologically the timing is just perfect. We are coming off of:
a) A Full Moon lunar eclipse March 25th in Libra (letting go of people-pleasing behaviors and relationships that have run their course);
b) A total solar eclipse with New Moon in Aries on April 8th (ambition, restlessness, self-focus); and then there’s the upcoming
c) Full Moon lunar eclipse in Pisces on September 18th (idealism, spiritual bypassing), as well as:
d) A New Moon in Libra solar eclipse on October 2nd (releasing outdated relationship patterns and purification).
So my friends, the Seasons continue to change whether we are ready or not. Full Moons typically are about completion and endings; New Moons reflect new beginnings and new opportunities; Eclipses magnify those energies three times as much! My retirement plan lands somewhere in the middle; I say goodbye to my 40+ year nursing career and hello to new adventures! I am long overdue!
"Retirement is not the end of the road. Often when you think you're at the end of something, you're at the beginning of something else". (Fred Rogers).
May you move in harmony with the Sun, Moon and Stars!
In good health,
Dr. A
Licensed Acupuncture Physician
www.Acupuncture4YourHealth.com
Yesterday - Friday August 30th - was a powerful day for me. Yet truth be told, July 30th was probably even more powerful and *significantly* more important than yesterday. Why? Because after careful thought, internal work and prayers for clarity, on July 30th I politely penned and turned in my resignation from my 9-to-5 "Government Job" and gave the perfunctory 30- day notice that August 30th would be my last day on the job. Can I tell you the peace that came over me once I made that decision to walk away from a nursing career that defined my very existence for over 40 years! Ever heard the term “The peace that passeth all understanding”? For context, Philippians 4:6-7 reads: “Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and petition and with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God which surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus”. Let me pause for a moment just to read that again and let it sink in. I invite you to do the same…..
And so here we are, Sunday September 1st. Trust and believe when I tell you that I slept REAL good last night, and I woke up feeling beautiful and light and happy, the 1st time in over a year. But wait; how is it September already? More importantly, how is it September 1st and I don’t have to go to work tomorrow, Monday? If you could only see me smiling right now as I pose this question; If you could aura-scan my Energy field and see how light and vibrant and alive I feel right now!!! Stark contrast to the miserable Corporate Zombie I had become, working in a cesspool of toxicity this final year and the weeks leading up to my decision to leave. Yes, I said it and I have no regrets saying it. Many of the people I worked with on a day-to-day basis would probably tell you they saw the changes coming.
For a long while I had resigned myself to fulfilling my civic duties and showed up every day, worked harder than I should have to do my job, meet their needs, keep the peace and make people happy. The expense I paid was it made me physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually ill. I caught COVID 3.5 times (I say 3.5 because the one time the test was negative but I had all the symptoms and I was penalized for calling out sick - AS DIRECTED!!!!). Yes, you read that right! And I would love for anyone from that Past to challenge me on this or say diddly-squat to me about me publicizing my truth. This happens every day. In the hospital setting, we are the front line workers who are exposed to all kinds of viruses and communicable diseases, and even though we have time allotted for Sick Days, we get written up and counseled for calling out sick. Make it make sense!
It wasn’t hard to make that decision when I finally did it. It was simple: stay and wither away into bitterness, or walk away from the fuckeries & bullshit, and reclaim my life, my health and my sanity. These were far more important to me at this point than any work loyalties or paycheck. So you the Reader - especially those of you who do not know me, or know of me from the periphery of my work, you are probably shocked to see this side of me? I make no apologies for my words. Unless you walked in my shoes and experienced all the things I experienced, you will never know and will never understand. I pray that you don’t.
Sometimes we get so caught up in our job, our role, our title. Our Ego falls prey to those narratives that dictate whether or not you identify yourself as a success or a failure. The majority of us are not lazy or ambitionless; The majority of us truly want to be productive members of society, and to use our gifts to make a difference in our community or the world at large. Some of us go in for altruistic reasons; Some for survival; Some for the potentiality of who we can become. Some of us unfortunately need - or get hit with - reminders of who ‘They’ think we are. But, I ask you: Who are you not?
Sometimes when you lose someone or something that you identified with, it causes a ‘suffering’ of sorts. Eckhart Tolle eloquently wrote (summarized): “You are not your role. You are not your status. You are not your possessions. You are not your religion. To know yourself is to be rooted in your Being, not lost in your mind…. Now you have to ask yourself: “Who am I without ‘It’ that was always such a presence in my life (good or bad).” This gives pause for reflection on your personal journey, your dreams, your goals, what you’re willing to sacrifice, how hard you will work, what will you settle for, to what degree will you compromise, what is your definition of success, and what will become your breaking (ending) point.
Well the other piece to this puzzle and to explain the timeliness of my decision we can look to the Stars. Astrologically the timing is just perfect. We are coming off of:
a) A Full Moon lunar eclipse March 25th in Libra (letting go of people-pleasing behaviors and relationships that have run their course);
b) A total solar eclipse with New Moon in Aries on April 8th (ambition, restlessness, self-focus); and then there’s the upcoming
c) Full Moon lunar eclipse in Pisces on September 18th (idealism, spiritual bypassing), as well as:
d) A New Moon in Libra solar eclipse on October 2nd (releasing outdated relationship patterns and purification).
So my friends, the Seasons continue to change whether we are ready or not. Full Moons typically are about completion and endings; New Moons reflect new beginnings and new opportunities; Eclipses magnify those energies three times as much! My retirement plan lands somewhere in the middle; I say goodbye to my 40+ year nursing career and hello to new adventures! I am long overdue!
"Retirement is not the end of the road. Often when you think you're at the end of something, you're at the beginning of something else". (Fred Rogers).
May you move in harmony with the Sun, Moon and Stars!
In good health,
Dr. A
Licensed Acupuncture Physician
www.Acupuncture4YourHealth.com
